Jesus to the End -- and Beyond

Everything comes to an end. Life. Seasons. Baseball and Basketball games. Good meals. Dessert. Sex. Games. Journeys. Vacations. Quarantine (we hope!). And my time to be your pastor. Everything. Everything except Jesus. He never ends. You cannot exhaust his wisdom. You cannot understand all he knows. You can never get to the end of his love. You cannot plumb the depths of his compassion. You cannot fathom his thoughts. You cannot praise enough the majesty of his Person. You will never know him better than he wants to know you.  So, for this last Sunday -- let’s focus on Jesus. Let’s pay attention to Him. Let’s thank HIM for this amazing walk together and celebrate this privilege - that even with all that is true about Jesus, still his intention is to make us like himself. Exactly. God has “...predestined (us) to be conformed to the image of His Son” (Ephesians 1). God predetermined that everyone would be made into a “little Christ.” That’s what the word Christian means. Pretty fabulous. 

So, I want you to know, I’ve learned so much about Jesus through all of you. So much. I give thanks for every moment we have shared, the joyful and the tearful ones. God used it all for such great good. And how cool to hand the baton to a great pastor in Brett Stuvland. We will do this on Sunday. Come, join worship. 9 am.

Paying It Forward

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Westsiders, the pocket change that you donated last year to KIVA continues to help small businesses!

As the loans are repaid, we are able to re-invest the money.

As the pandemic threatens small businesses all over the world, we chose two People of Color in the US for loans this month.

Yaminah, a lawyer and mediator in Georgia, received $50. Lee, a caterer in California, received $25. Both are struggling to keep their businesses alive.

Thanks to God, we are blessed to be able to be a blessing.

Brian's Blog: In the Arena

“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.”  Teddy Roosevelt, April 23, 1910

Think on this. It is not the critic that counts. The critic usually stands on the sidelines. This is the heckler. The troll who disrupts posts. The one who rails against the one fighting the battles on his or her behalf. This is not the one who counts. It is not the one who yells against those seeking to help. Yet, all of us, almost without fail, give too much credence to the voice of the heckler, the critic, the one sent to “steal, kill and destroy.” 

How many of us respond to the one negative comment not the ten positive that happen in a day? How often do we wilt at a critique instead of blossoming before the words of praise? Too often. 

Roosevelt, who was a president much like our current one, just as unbridled and outspoken, knew much about critics. Maybe he was speaking from experience in this 1910 speech. But these are worthwhile words to remember. 

Stay in the arena. Continue to dare greatly. 

We need those who will continue to fight for a culture where people remember that our battle is not against flesh and blood but against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly realms. Such forces are not fought with angry diatribes but best fought upon our knees. Best fought by actions characterized by love. 

It made me wonder who are the ones today “striving valiantly” who are “in the arena?” 

Are they Amy Fiederowicz and Bonnie Becker and those helping with food and housing insecurities?

Are they Debbie Gabel, Lisa Theriot, Kat Tollefson and others working in the health fields? 

Are they those standing, praying, being present in the middle of the rioters as someone who is standing for another Way in the middle of mayhem? 

Are they the police who do not support the brutality, but support and love people who want to see life made possible for others by their protection? Like the sheriff who came to check in with us after my car was stolen -- he was such a gift to us that morning. 

Are they the ones working to make PPE supplies available for those needing them? 

Are they others? The truck drivers transporting goods we would not see without them? The delivery drivers? The workers in grocery stores and other markets? You and me as we reach out to those around us fearful in this season? Are these those in the arena? 

Are they the moms and dads who while juggling work have sought since March to homeschool their children with limited supplies and direction at first? Are these the heroes striving valiantly in the arena?

Are they the ones who cannot sleep because God continues to stir them from slumber to pray for the hurting, the lost, the lonely, the broken, the abused, the hurting, the desperate? 

Are they the workers seeking to serve the migrant community, transporting workers to the fields, taking food, delivering masks, helping with dental clinics?

Yes.

Anyone who is seeking to serve God, who is seeking to offer his or her life to Jesus in this season, anyone who is seeking to love others like he or she has been loved, these are those IN THE ARENA. 

Thank you for your courage and bravery and willingness to dare greatly in this season for the sake of many in need. Remember, it is not the critic that counts.

Choosing to be Present

From the Zoom chat during Sunday’s worship service:

Share a story from this week when you Chose to be Present:

  • Amy F. – 2 friends had fires this week, one had a dryer fire in their home. She was able to provide food & clothes for these families.

  • Pastor Brian – Yesterday we were able to be present to each other in real time, bodies in the same space. It was just beautiful. A few times when no one was talking to me, I was able to witness it. You were all talking in little groups which was beautiful and hilarious and lovely. It is such a testimony of how you desire to be together and the connection you have with each other has not been severed.

  • Kari – We were able to join on Zoom with Joe’s cousin in hospital from horseback riding accident. She was able to take mini iPad over to Roberta’s and Joe joined in with his phone. It was really great to all be together with the family. Presence. Roberta was really happy to be able to see and talk to her sister and her nieces. Maureen is in good spirits but has a serious neck injury and will have surgery on Monday, 6/22.

  • Ivan – It was a blessing to see the joy and excitement in Finn as he was with me on the road this week.

  • Dianne – Everyone say Happy 40th Wedding Anniversary to Debbie & Chris Gable. It’s really nice to see all you guys here from the Lighthouse; I wish we could all be together in the same place.

  • Dave – Thanks to all who came by to celebrate my birthday. I still can’t wipe the smile off my face from the joy in hearing the band in the garage, singing and followed by the barbershop quartet. Love you all.  Giving thanks to my dad (rest his beautiful soul) for demonstrating what it is to be a father

Next Steps for June 21

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Here are the Next Steps for your faith journey:

  1.  Pray five times a day; turn to God at awakening, before bedtime, and at every meal. 

  2.  Give something away: You can’t take it with you, so let go. 

  3.  Care more about others than how you are perceived.

  4.  Talk:  With whom do you need to have a brave, careful conversation? 

Daring Greatly

After binge-watching Downton Abbey for 7 hours, Brene Brown started to look up the time period of the series and stumbled upon a quote from Teddy Roosevelt. She calls it her Jesus moment. In the middle of a shame meltdown, overwhelmed by the countless words of criticism, she read his words about daring greatly.  Here’s the quote:

“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.” 

Awakened, Brene stood up to “dare greatly,” choosing courage for one of her life values. It is not the critic that counts. We would do well to remember those words.  

Jesus knew critics berated him from the sidelines. He knew what it was to come against literally impossible odds. He knew what it was, along with all those who were “types of Christs” before him, to stand in the midst of battle, to fight wrong, and uplift the downtrodden. Jesus knew and practiced bravery. 

Sunday we will visit one beautiful scene, in which, contrasted between immense compassion and powerful confrontation, Jesus dared greatly and shows us how to do so as well. We are a people who are called to great things, take stands against evil, uphold the right and make a difference in a society marred by critics, not by those who are actually “in the arena.” 

As we are looking at the brief encounters Jesus had, we are looking for ways we too can choose bravery that looks like Jesus’ not like an angry mob, smashing windows and burning police cars.  Courage like the Flint, MI white sheriff who without his weapons, vest, or armor, offered hugs and love, marched with a beautiful mosaic crowd of every race remembering George Floyd. Dare greatly to stand courageously with Jesus. 9 am Sunday.

Brian's Blog: Counting Your Impact

When God called me to come here, the call came through my district superintendent, Kate Conolly. I had told her the previous week,  “Don’t call me unless a church comes up that has your heart singing.” 

On Sunday night, March 8th at my SPRC team in Banks I told them Kate had said there were no churches open, so they were stuck with me another year. Two nights later, while Karen was doing tutoring, my cell rang and Kate’s name was in the window. I stepped into the small hallway to the downstairs bathroom where we had our washer and dryer, and took the call. As I answered, Kate literally started singing. “BRIAN! THIS IS KATE! I HAVE SOMEONE YOU NEED TO TALK TO!!!” My pulse increased. “An appointment? She had just told me there were no churches,” I was thinking.

The way such calls work is your own DS makes the call and then, if you are to move out of the district, hands the phone to the DS overseeing the church to which you are transferring or tells you to expect a call from them. 

Since she was calling from cabinet meeting - with all the District Superintendents, Conference Treasurer, Bishop, and others, -- she handed her cell phone to Bonnie Parr Philipson. Bonnie was DS for the Columbia District, which was then called Metro. Bonnie told me how when my name came up suddenly the whole room was unanimous. They wanted me to move to Westside beginning July 1st. 

I was a bit staggered. I thought of Westside as a big, important place, making a splash as a new church start, as a place with incredible music, and ministry to youth and homeless populations. She told me some about the church and what they thought I would bring to this appointment, and then gave me overnight to think, pray about it and talk to Karen. 

It was with some excitement when Karen finished with her client that I told her about the appointment possibility. We drove out to the church in the next couple of days to at least see the building. We prayed and felt like God was excited about the possibilities in our lives and the lives of the folk at Westside. 

Because of this appointment, much changed. I came and met with a large group of people on Thursday night the 12th and then again on another night. I remember tearing up at the beauty of all of you at that first meeting. Someone said, “He’ll fit right in. A westside weeper!”  You just were beautiful with your passion, love of music, love of one another. You asked deep, theological questions. It was this amazing conversation. I was stunned with you all. 

I remember another meeting with you not long after that, at which Nancy MacDonald’s first question was how I handled conflict. Perhaps a clue that you had some. 

In saying yes, another change was housing. For 22 years of pastoral ministry, we had lived in parsonages. With this appointment, we could buy our first house. So, we began the process of discerning what we wanted, where we wanted to live, and hunting for houses! We finally found and settled on the one where we are living, made an offer, it was accepted and moved in on June 4th. During the last month at Banks, we commuted Sundays and other days back and forth to the Banks community and began to find our way in the new setting.

After July first, so many of you came and helped -- painting the whole interior of the house. Dian Green was a huge gift in color choices. Many called and greeted me on the phone. It was this vast week of sharing. I remember a delightful phone call from Julie Campbell telling me of their first-ever RV vacation slated that week so she was sorry they could not come help. Her description of the RV and dogs and kids and the plan was hilarious and such a great introduction to her and the Baumgartner family. It was a great week. Thank you. 

We launched. 

I was staggered by the community that gathered for the two Sunday services. So many new faces, stories, lives. It was an exciting, new adventure. That fall Colloquy occurred at Westside and one of the pastors who came told me, “You won’t last 3 years. This place is rife with conflict.” 

I was a bit taken aback. I knew there was conflict. Isn’t there always conflict whenever we people are together long enough to rub off the rough edges? 

But I felt she spoke from a limited perspective. First, she really didn’t know me. And second, she didn’t take into account the beauty of who you are! She said it was a place rife with conflict. But you know what else this place was “rife” with? Dynamic faith and joy, vision for the possibilities of ministry, and a desire to make a difference in the world. This place was “rife with love” -- love of neighbor and love for one another too. Indeed, this place then was “rife with beauty,” and that has not changed.  

I cannot imagine we are this near the end of 11 years. Thank you, all of you, as some have left and others have come, for your willingness to be a part of this experiment in loving God and loving one another. We have tried something immense together and it has made a difference.  Can we even count how many lives have been impacted through Jesus using us here at Westside over these years? We cannot, I’m certain. For often it is not the people we might think of, but the ones we do not think of we ought to be counting. 

We might not think of the stranger who wandered into worship and began weeping and received prayer and assistance. 

We might not think of the woman who came for counseling because of unprocessed grief, on 27 different medications, and left after one prayer time and one appointment experiencing healing. Such healing that over the next few months, she was able to get off of all but 2 of her meds. God healed. 

We might not think of the people impacted seeing the cross lit up at night. 

We might not think of the migrant camp workers who met love in Bonnie Becker and many others week after week. 

We might not think of those who visit the dental van and experienced the love of Jesus through Kari and Merry and others. 

We might not think of those driving by for whom the sign had just the right words on the right day. 

We might not think of all the people who left, even who left angry, but whose lives Jesus impacted even as they left and in whose lives Jesus yet works. 

We might not think of those people, and so many, many others who have sensed upon their hearts the call of God and are following Jesus because of a prayer prayed, a card written, a story told, or a hug shared. We might not think of them, but God remembers them all. 

And we might not think of the impact you have had on me. I literally believe you saved my life in so many ways. Thanks for making provisions to be a pastor who was on the road sometimes. Thanks for supporting me through some tough, tough seasons. Thanks for believing in me, even when I didn’t believe in myself. Thanks for dreaming with me for all the possible places God might lead us. Thanks again for encouraging me and making it possible for me to take sabbatical. It was a journey that saved my heart and my life. 

What a difference God has worked through you. Well done Good and Faithful servants of the Living God!  

Send-Off Slideshow

A slideshow honoring Pastor Brian’s time at Westside was shown during worship on Sunday. If you missed it, watch it here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ce0rQq92Zu8.

Online comments following the slideshow:

Pursingers – Brian…you are truly Blessed.   Love the “Old Jewish character” you played!

Sullivans – Beautiful! Love that show.  You are beautiful Brian. We’re all the better for having you in our lives. You’ve taught us to be unconditional in our love and most importantly to be the person God intended.  Brian gives us plenty of animation on his own.

Martha – Oh my gosh…Sorry Mom….I’m crying! We will miss you Brian! Know that you are loved!  Know that you aren’t gone from our lives.

Wendy F. – We love you so much!!  This is a pastor transition but not a friend transition!! We get to continue to be active friends and that is a blessing to all of us.

Amy F. – Once a Westside weeper, always a Westside weeper.  Brian you are such a blessing to us all.

Kari – Thank you Fred! And everyone who sent photos in!  Lots of love to you Brian! Friends Forever!

Stephanie – I needed to cry happy tears…Thank you Jesus for allowing us to know and share so many beautiful memories w/ Brian.

Bonnie – What Sally said.  I’ve learned so much from you Brian.

Francie – Maybe it’s better we’re all remote, imagine this going down AT Westside…..

Cosgroves – It’s been a journey of love!  Brian, It’s good to be present to yourself…xxxooo

Paige – This is harder because you are truly our friend and brother. We are beyond blessed by you.

Weavers – God Bless you, Brian. Thank you for sharing your wonderful spirit with our small church. God is with you always.

Carol – Brian, Thank you for Blessing our Westside Family & extended families for all these years!!! We love you and your family!!!

Merry – Thank you for being our friend and teaching us so much.

Pastor Brian – Thank you all for these precious gifts and wishes. Your hearts are beautiful and I love you a lot!

Choosing to be Kind

Sharing a story from Choosing to be Kind & what the result of this was:

Cosgroves – I chose kind when I chose not to respond to a snarky Facebook post.

Amy – Dad says you’re a kid Dave (re: Dave S. Birthday tomorrow)

Merry – I am in touch with Nina M. and pray for her daily. She’s in Canada and is worried about America.

Ivan – I choose kindness daily with drivers on the road.

Martha – Those of us who will never see 64 again agree with Ed!

Bonnie – Nurse was kind at Kaiser when she snuck me in to sit with Tom and Tami Ely while they waited for transport….that never showed up.

Susan W. – Happy pre Birthday Dave! Next year Medicare! I got mine March 1 and used it June 3!!!

Morgan – Ashleigh had a busy day so I hung out with Kendall to give her a little break. We brought her to see my Gramma and Uncle at The Springs. Seeing her face light up was so precious <3

Kari – I was patient and kind to my dental patients that really didn’t want to have their teeth cleaned.  Probably the parents appreciated it more than they did.

Brian – I chose kind this week when I went to Rite-Aid this week to get rubbing alcohol to make our disinfecting wipes for the church. The sign said buy 2, get one free. I came to counter and cashier said there is a limit of only 1 per customer. She said she would give me the discount price. I was so confused, but it didn’t matter, I took the one big bottle and left the little ones there.

Sally – We loaned the neighbor eggs to make a special sauce. The result of this was he brought us over dinner! And now that he found out it’s Dave’s Birthday tomorrow, he’s bringing us over dinner again…because he loves us!

Martha – Our son invited us over to his house in NE Portland. We were able to spend some time with 3 year old Ada; watch our little extrovert as she talks to everybody in very adult language asking everyone what they are doing & their opinion about what they are doing. And this was a very wonderful time and a time of kindness actually.

Michele – I have some friends who are dealing with anxiety and depression and a few that unfortunately have cancer. So instead of sending them emails, I actually got them cards & sent them cards. People seem to enjoy that extra little something when you send a card.  

Sally – I was really involved with the nursing staff when I was going through the situation with my brother. I wrote a Letter to the Editor of the local paper praising the hospital and the nurses. And I got a call and it’s going to go or be posted tomorrow in the Editorial Section of the local paper. Plus, we have sent numerous thank you notes to the nurses and we have gotten such lovely feedback from them with their appreciation for our appreciation of what they do.

Have you chosen to be kind at some point this week? Share in the comments.

Presence

I saw the man driving past our house doing 40 with his phone up so it was visible to his eye as he drove and texted. I’ve never been to that level of texting and driving. And have given it up, really. What is it about us people that we really believe we can do more than one thing at a time? 

I was talking to a friend and she kept glancing at her phone, tracking stuff that was coming in while we were talking. She was not present. 

At one of my one-to-one visits with Erin Martin, our District Superintendent, she asked how I was doing; I began to sob. Okay, it was not my best day. Erin tuned in. She looked at me and was present. She handed me a box of kleenex and listened as I described the depth of loss my heart was feeling. And then she didn’t answer. Instead, she asked me a question which changed my life. 

Presence. It makes all the difference. One of the most famous stories in the Bible talks about it eloquently. In fact in many quarters you need only name the sisters involved and people know the story. It is a story about many things, although it has been reduced as if to a single contrast too often. This Sunday, we are looking at it from the back door, from the underside, and looking at how Jesus was there for both these sisters and what his presence meant.  

Don’t miss worship! 

Bearing Witness on June 18

A handful of members of Fremont UMC felt stirred by the Spirit earlier this week to make plans to gather outside their church's building along NE Fremont Street next Thursday, June 18, to bear witness to our God of suffering love, inconvenient justice, and hard-fought reconciliation in this time of soul-searching and reckoning in the wake of the killing of George Floyd. They'll be holding signs in support of Black Lives Matter and waving at traffic along the sidewalk during rush hour that evening, showing their congregation's support for our siblings of color and our endorsement that our society and systems must change.

They invite you to do the same. Please consider if the Spirit is prompting a similar action outside your church's building at the same time. On June 18th, gather at 5pm in the public place closest to your congregation and make a public witness. Be sure to follow Fremont's lead in following all recommended pandemic precautions, including social distancing and mask-wearing for all.

Pastor Brian is unavailable that evening, but if you feel led, please take photos — we'd love to share them with the District!

Prayer of Pastor Brian

Jesus, I pray for the people of Westside today that You would bring simple joy and a large dose of hope where despair has reigned. Bring beauty in nature, peace to the heart, and replace worry with contentment. You are able to do that, I know. So I pray You would bend your ear to earth and hear the prayer of these friends and family who really need to know right now that YOU SEE. Amen.

Hope for Tomorrow

In my daily pain

In my daily sorrow

I close my weary eyes

With Hope for tomorrow.

Tomorrow with no anger

Holding hands is the norm

Generations work together

To avoid the hatred storm.

Tomorrow where any colors

Are floating in the sky

All people melt together

And no one questions why.

Tomorrow filled with laughter

Lives filled with grace

Where there are smiles

On each and every face.

In my daily pain

In my daily sorrow

I know that there will be

HOPE for tomorrow!

—By Martha Tunall